I’m baack. I’ve let my healthy lifestyle slip a little unfortunately… lots of going out for dinner and bought lunches. hmm. also now that i’m back at uni not exercising much.

But from tonight, that’s all going to change. I only get one body, and it should be how I would like it.

Willpower! Strength! Dedication! Perseverance! Health!

It’s actually amazing how sluggish and just ick i feel right now after weeks of over eating. Tomorrow I’m going down to 1200 cal per day, and I’ll stay with that for awhile. After that, who knows.

All I know is purging is out of the question. I am going to keep my discipline like a monk!

Don’t wish me luck… it’s not a matter of luck. It is a matter of inner strength.

xxx

skinny-winter:

Please join my challenge. It’s so much fun when more people are supporting one another plus you would make me really happy :) All information can be found here and you can sign up here. There are no rules to this challenge except for you to reach your goal. Let’s all support each other in this battle of weight loss. What are you waiting for? Let’s lose weight!

a couple of nights ago i went to dinner with my parents. we went to the new mexican restaurant in the giant football club nearby. i purged twice during dinner, once after the entree and once again after dinner. going into the disabled toilets is good for this, you can be on your own. and then when i got home i had a shower and purged again…. i actually find purging to be pretty easy. I’ve only started in the past three weeks or so, i don’t know where it came from. i just started doing it. i feel a little weak afterwards. during dinner i faked having something caught in my eye to warrant both needing to go to the toilet again and why my eyes would be red after. sigh… i don’t want to have to do that again. have to lie and lie to hide my purging secret. must always continue restricting my intake until i reach my goal weight so i dont have to purge.

have strength.